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Late last night, my mom was helping me with some project and I suddenly brought up a topic. I was supposed to say it was random pero hindi. It was about my flings :))) `Twas not random kase earlier that day, I saw Bestman’s ex sa KFC so.. See? =)))) Anyways. Ang weird nga eh. Kase sabe ko kay mom, “Ma, alam mo ba. Sa bawat guy na naka-fling ko, may iba’t-ibang feelings…” HAHAHA! And with feelings, I meant it as:

VballKapre: Summer feeling, Freedom, Butterflies, Chick :”>  

Bestman: Futuristic (Everything’s planned), War-of-the-Chicks, THIS-IS-IT-feel, “Fairytale”

Hahahaha! Something like that? Anyways, my mom didn’t care as long as she’s popping my stars =)))))) Pero naisip ko… Gosh. Sa kanila, hindi ako naging real self ko :P Kay VballKapre, pwede pa eh. Pero kay Bestman, hindi. War-of-the-Chicks nga diba? Kase we both were trying to be the one na hinahabol and such. :PPP =))))) Kainis. Kaya lang kay Mark ako nagkaron ng “Feelings” talaga </3 Nye? Kase he was really sweet and all. Almost perfect, actually. Maybe the guy version of me? :> In terms of paguugali and deeds ah? :P Nyenye. I thought he was almost perfect :’)) MYGOODNESS. Di parin maka move-on? Anyways, I still do like him and I absolutely still do have a crush on him pero, momo-nomo. Ayokoooo! Jerk mashado =))))) Hoho. So? Hahajk. Ayun. 

I miss of having Bestman as a chick. Sobrang sarap ng feeling eh. Pogi ng nagpapakilig at kinikilig sa’yo. :”> Hehe. Umaga’t gabi ba naman, walang humpay na mag “Good morning Sleeping Beauty :”>” and “Good night Sleeping Beauty :”>” Langya =)))) I also miss him saying he’ll “MARRY ME” someday. What an ass :| Kk, nuffsaid, bye! <3 

Grabe, earlier this afternoon as I just came home from Piano practice at MCIS, my Daddy had this unusual phone call as his tone of voice was unusual as well. Yun pala, it was the Events Coordinator something ng SM Masinag who said she’d call me to sing there whenever. So, ayun! She actually did! SOBRANG NAKAKA OVERWHELM! So anyways, I was called to sing there and play my guitar. Grabe, this is totally a dream coming to life. This way I am fulfilling me and my seatmate/churchmate’s dream (SINCE LIKE, FOREVER!) to sing as a duo and be famous. Wooh, eh kase nung ganado pa talaga ako noon to partner with him, NR mashado. We just jam sa classroom and sa school. I wanted us to cover songs and video record them. Eh, wala. Pabaya. And, we’ve grown apart, di na nagpapansinan. Ayun! Niaaway ako? (Baby tokk! HAHA) Grabe, we used to be so close! Pero ngayon, we don’t even see each other eye-to-eye. People change eh :PP SUCKAS!

Woo. This feeling sucks up to it’s core \m/

I hate it how we judge each other’s actions without knowing the story behind it. It’s so foolish lang talaga to make conclusions without proof. Naman, it’d be stupid and childish of me to take offense first. Chess chess din! =))) I have not done anything yet and you’re all paranoid already. Wait ‘til something happens :O :”>

Okay, so obviously, as it is in my timeline. I won 3rd in an Avril Lavigne promiting contest! Yay for me! =)))) It was this biglaan thing na wala mashadong practice and stuff. Nakakahiya pa kase I had a lyrics stand by me while I was playing my guitar and singing =))) I didn’t even sound or look like Avril Lavigne! =)))) Kabastos ko naman bata, sumali pako, tas kumain pa ng McDo habang kumakanta yung iba. Well, sorry naman, ah? WALA PA KASE AKONG LUNCH NUN, ANO? =))Well, to top it all off… Yes, it was an awesome experience that I sure do want to feel again! Well, why wouldn’t I right? Who knows, that would give me that BIG BREAK? :”> Hohohoho. PRAYERS! :***

So, yah. PROMENADE! Hard thing for ngit-pa-doodle gerls like me is the “waiting-for-someone-to-ask-me” part </3 Huhuhu. Yung romantic asking na every girl in highschool would fantasize of :”> Well, I don’t see much of effort in asking on tv, but here in our highschool at the Phils, they make sure they give out lots’a efforts to ask a girl. Some would even have people to help them and props, and roses. Well, yah. Prom is soon approaching, and though I’m gonna force myself to stag, I still am waiting for some to at least put some efforts to ask :’( Poor kiddo, I know. My second and last prom didn’t even make me feel a spark =))))))) Well, sa dance namin  with the juniors, my junior crush asked me to be his partner :”> Not in the romantic way as I assumed, but it was good enough to know that he’d ask me :”“”“> HAHAHA! Good feeling na when they announced that Junior guys should pair up with Senior girls through asking, I’m like one of the Top 5-10 I guess to be asked first :’) HOHOHOHOHO. I felt like a chick :”> For the first time ever. Hahaha! Well, I hope we’d have fun with each other’s company. Huhu -____- Nakakapressure tuloy. Feel ko kase talaga, napilitan lang siya i-ask ako :’( PROMENADE! WHY SO MEAN AND COLD? </3 /wrist

Respect is all I ask and need. It’s also for you to be free. Ako NR, ikaw nagwawala na. What goes around comes around. VVersa. Okaaaay? Stop wasting your energy and be chill! There’s no reason to say bad things about me. I am doing you no harm :( Wag na ipilit? Too much of it gives me an impression of insecurity, not jealousy. Too much, too obvious :PPPP Gimme a break, please? :((((((